I learned that the loss of people dear to you still does not stop life. As a mom of four I learned this the hard way. While I felt heart ache my littles had no idea what I was going through. They still demanded me to fully show up to help them every single day. I had limited time to stop.
Also, I had a full time demanding job to return to. Life did not stop moving even when I wanted to. People still required all of me to show up. Even when I wasn’t sure if all of me could show up.
Life did not stop for me to grieve. I had to grieve and live. I could not be the person that stopped living because of death. Death is a part of life. Although it hurts it’s a part of the journey. I had to see this part of my life in a different way.
Death awakens life. Living became easier because I knew my father would want me to be who I was destined to be. I had to see his transition as a push to grow and evolve.
I am no longer the woman I was before my dad passed. I am better. I have stepped into a better version of myself. Although I did fight depression I decided I would not allow it to take a hold of me. My life is worth living and I had to keep living.
Grief made me better. I allow myself to feel and just simply breathe. There is an openness and awareness. I have to keep living…
Lisa Sophia 